Thursday, December 29, 2011
So, it's gonna be th end of 2011 in afew days time. and 2012 is coming into out life soon, th end of th world? Nahh, it wont happen. What a hectic year it was. So many things happened, dont you just get tired of it? I do. Relationship, friendship, studies, school, family. Sometimes i just wanna put down everything and go on a long vacation to fucking enjoy myself. But will that ever happen? Yeahh, but not now. Sigh. I had no idea why is god giving such life obstacles fer me. Make th guy which i once thought he was th one to leave me again, again and again? Please, i had enough. I gave him everything i had, and these what i get in return? I loved him so much that i could sacrifice anything just fer him. I was th only there fer him when he was being despise by everyone. Th only one there fer him when he got no one to turn to. Th one who bathe fer him everyday when he was in a cast. Th one who was there fer him till he wanted to leave me again. Sometimes i just wished someone could tell him how much i loved him, how much he shld hold me tight and never let me go. Guess it was really a mistake right frm th very start, we shldnt even get tgt. Sigh. Im so tired of everything. If only everything could turn out th way i wanted it to be like. And to him : who was th one who held me tightly in his arms saying tht he's sorry fer everything and wont let me go anymore? Who was th one who begged me to wait fer him? Who was th one who said tht "you're th one" ? So what if you still love me? So what if im th one who knows you th best? So what if im th only one whose always been there fer you? Everything will be different soon. They said it's just a matter of time, but all these memories will just haunt me down more. That hurts. Im just so tired of all this, i just wanna be a happy girl. I love you.
xoxo
do you love me ? , :D
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