Saturday, August 27, 2011

Dear varat, ytd was th 2nd month since we broke up. And tmr will be th day when everything will come t an end. Fer all th past two months, i've been trying non stop, every means just t get you back. I did not give up at all, thou i said i gave up alot alot alot of times. Frens told me tht you didnt even put in any effort at all. I will always come up with positive excuses. Sometimes i really wonder if it's even worth anot. Maybe you're just taking me fer granted? It's also a bad thing tht i know you too well, tht's why i always didnt wann t let go. I know, everything wont be th same anymore. When i care bout you, you find me irritating and didnt wann t contact me. But when i didnt contact you, you said i've moved on. Since when did i ever said tht? I thought i told you i will only give up when my feelings fer you had gone? Im not like you, can take it so easy. There's so so so many things i wanted t say, t tell you. But now i see no point, whtever shit i say, you wont fucking give a damn. It's okay. Im tired of everything. So wht if i still hold on, so wht if i tell you i miss you, so wht if i told you i love you? You wont do th same.

Monday, August 15, 2011

Dear Varat,

Sunday, August 7, 2011

42Days ~

Saturday, August 6, 2011

Another day had passed. I havent seen you fer quite a long time.. I realised we didnt tok much since last monday, 01/08/11. We didnt really meet up either. Just that on wednesday, 03/08/11, you actually called and asked if wann meet, i was so happy. But i didnt really show out. Just as i was abt t walk down and take bus, sudd you say dw meet le.. Sigh.. My heart sank.. But it's okay, now i dont really see th need fer us t meet everyday. Maybe absence will make th heart grow fonder? But idk if you still have feelings fer me not.. I know my feelings fer you have never change. That's why i decided t write th letter and pass it t you before you leave. I wann you t really think carefully abt us during these few days when we're apart frm one another. And abt th other letter abt saying im ready t let go, im being forced t write one okay. Some people say that maybe you might think i've alr started t let go and forget you. But it's not okay! Im just giving you more space and time.. Cox i scared i've been toking t you too much lately. Do you understand? They also tell me maybe it's becox of th way i treat you sometimes, like im actually veh happy but i didnt really show out. But now im telling you, everytime when im with you, im really happy. There's also afew times that you just sudd say i dont seems t care abt you anymore, but actually i did, and there's never once that i give up on you. Never.. Sometimes you just so cute can! And ytd idk why i looked thru our photos and read our past conversation on fb. We used t be so fine in th past, i can really tell th difference btw last time and now. But of cox i know, if you're willing t give us one more chance, i know we will be better. Cox all th problems have alr been solved. I know wht went wrong in our r/s, and i had changed fer th better. And fer now, all i wann t do is just let you t think carefully and idw t pressurize you too. I just wann you t be happy dear.

Friday, August 5, 2011

Dear Varat,